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Tuesday, May 27, 2003
Have It Your Way
DSM IV Meets Sid Vicious

From EGR: What It Will Say, May 11, 2002.

And what does this say about you? About me? And what does that say about us? About us. What it says about us is once upon a time...

And even then I couldn't stop myself. Couldn't let it go. "Sinatra was a ruthless thug," I said.

"So what," she said. "I like his voice."

So what. So I'm writing tonight. So voice is a word that has special meaning for me, though I've given up trying to unpack it. The most profound meanings are often discovered in the most trivial use. Like the unselfconscious patois of the street. Like a freight train passing by a stream bed. I'm reading about solfege, telephony. The sun is going down. I'm going out right now to get my hands on Sid & Nancy. Gotta watch that again. I never gave a fuck about the Sex Pistols, which seems appropriate, don't you think? Until that scene where Oldman's doing Vicious doing Sinatra. It stopped my mind. Years ago. And it struck me again just now as my Rosetta Stone. Art from the ashes, the flashes, your lashes. Eyeless in Gaza. In Alexandria. In trance. I see London, baby, I see France. Intravenous ad altare Dei. Mix it, fix it, take a hit. You know how this shit works.

Voice. Don't leave home without it.

That's the delta. The so in so what. Remember Mekong? The Rat Pack? Frank and Dean and Sammy and say, look at that, JFK. Dead Kennedys partying while the napalmed world burned down. Day and night. Night and day. And will you take your apocalypse now, Mr. Kurtz?

I did it my way, the guy says. Your sleek self-confident blue-eyed boy, and underneath, an arrogant urbane brutality. Swingin. Cool. As cold as they come. Where's the love in Sinatra's love songs, I'm wondering. Where's my M-1? I wonder how he treated his women in Vegas. Like a gentleman, no doubt. Like one-a the guys. Like Luciano and Giancana. Smooth operators all. Made in the shade. And between Sade and de Sade falls the shadow. And shall I wear my trousers rolled? And will we pass this way again? And meanwhile Iggy's going love in the middle of a firefight on search & destroy. And I've been walking point long enough and I've been destroyed enough now thanks and I don't want no more of this, no more. Hueys coming in for evac. Rotorwash pushing the jungle back for a second, so deep they keep coming on, so many so angry no place to hide to run... I wake up screaming. And whew. Good thing it was only a dream. God bless America. Good thing we did it your way.

Regrets? Not me. Fuck you, Frank.

Individuals with Narcissistic Personality Disorder often have a grandiose view of themselves, a need for admiration, and a lack of empathy that begins by early adulthood and is present in various situations. These individuals are very demanding in their relationships. This pattern is indicated by five (or more) of the following (from DSM IV, American Psychiatric Association, 1994). Individuals who don't give a flying fuck about your sagging ass often laugh at your high-horse bullshit. This extreme lack of sympathy typically sets in after one too many of your fucking entitlement tantrums and is indicated by five (or more) of the following (from "My Way" as performed by Sid Vicious on The Great Rock & Roll Swindle, 1979, or by Gary Oldman on Sid & Nancy: Love Kills, 1986).
1. Has an inflated sense of self-importance (e.g., exaggerates achievements and talents, expects to be recognized as superior without corresponding achievements). and now, the end is near
and so i face the final curtain, ha ha ha
you cunt, i'm not a queer
i'll state my case, of which i'm certain
2. Is overly concerned with fantasies of unlimited success, power, brilliance, beauty, or ideal love. i've lived a life that's full
and each and every highway
and more, much more than this
i did it my way
3. Believes she is "special" and unique and can only be understood by, or should associate with, other special or high-status people (or institutions). regrets, i've had a few
but then again, too few to mention
but dig, what i had to do
i saw it through without intention
4. Requires excessive admiration. Is often an "artist" or calligrapher. of that, take care and just
be careful along the highway
and more, much more than this
i did it my way
5. Has a sense of entitlement, i.e., unreasonable expectations of very positive treatment or automatic compliance with her expectations. there were times,
i'm sure you knew
when there was nothing
fuck all else to do
6. Takes advantage of others to achieve her own ends. but through it all,
when there was doubt
i shot it up or kicked it out
i fought the war just as before
and did it my way
7. Lacks empathy: is unwilling to identify with the feelings and needs of others. knocked out in bed last night
i've had my fill, my share of looting
and now, the tears subside
i find it all so amusing
8. Is often jealous of others or believes that others are jealous of her. to think, i killed a cat
and may i say, oh no not their way
but no, no no, not me
i did it my way
9. Shows arrogant or domineering behaviors or attitudes. for what is a brat, what has he got
when he finds out that he cannot
say the things he truly thinks
but only words, not what he feels
the record shows, i've got no clothes.
i did it myyyyyyyy waaaaay...

2:47 AM | link |

Monday, May 26, 2003
Uncomfortably Dumb
DSM IV Meets Pink Floyd

Individuals with Borderline Personality Disorder show a generalized pattern of instability in interpersonal relationships, self-image, and observable emotions, and significant impulsiveness. This pattern begins by early adulthood, occurs in various contexts, and is indicated by five (or more) of the following (from DSM IV, American Psychiatric Association, 1994). Individuals who just can't take it anymore show a generalized pattern of being seriously fucked over in relationships, no money or little white picket fucking fences, and significantly bad attitude toward authority. This pattern begins by early adulthood, occurs in various contexts (duh!), and is indicated by five (or more) of the following (from "Comfortably Numb" by Pink Floyd on The Wall, 1994).
1. Frantic efforts (excluding suicidal or self-inflicted cuts or burns) to avoid real or imagined abandonment. Hello. Hello. Hello...
Is there anybody in there?
Just nod if you can hear me
Is there anyone home?
2. A pattern of intense and unstable interpersonal relationships that may quickly alternate between extremes of idealization and devaluation. Come on, now.
I hear you're feeling down.
Well I can ease your pain
Get you on your feet again.
3. Identity disturbance: sudden and dramatic shifts in self-image in terms of shifting values (e.g., sexual identity, types of friends) and vocational goals. Relax. Relax. Relax...
I need some information first.
Just the basic facts
Can you show me where it hurts?
4. Impulsiveness in at least two areas that are potentially harmful (e.g., spending, sex, substance abuse, reckless driving, binge eating, excluding suicidal or self-mutilating behavior). There is no pain, you are receding.
A distant ship's smoke on the horizon.
You are only coming through in waves.
Your lips move but I can't hear what you're saying.
5. Repeated suicidal behavior or threats, or self-inflicted cuts or burns (e.g., self-mutilating behavior). When I was a child I had a fever.
My hands felt just like two balloons.
Now I got that feeling once again.
I can't explain, you would not understand.
This is not how I am.
I have become comfortably numb.
6. Significant, sudden changes in mood and observable emotion (e.g., intense periodic sadness, irritability, or anxiety, usually lasting a few hours and rarely lasting more than a few days; extreme reactivity to interpersonal stresses). OK. OK. OK...
Just a little pinprick.
There'll be no more ...aaaaaahhhhh!
But you may feel a little sick.
7. Chronic feelings of emptiness; also may be easily bored. Can you stand up? Stand up. Stand up...
I do believe it's working. Good.
That'll keep you going for the show.
Come on it's time to go...
8. Inappropriate, intense anger or difficulty controlling anger (e.g., frequent displays of temper, constant anger, recurrent physical fights). There is no pain, you are receding.
A distant ship's smoke on the horizon.
You are only coming through in waves.
Your lips move but I can't hear what you're saying...
9. Temporary, stress-related psychosis (symptoms such as paranoia or grossly distorted body image) When I was a child I caught a fleeting glimpse
Out of the corner of my eye.
I turned to look but it was gone.
I cannot put my finger on it now.
The child is grown, the dream is gone.
I have become comfortably numb.

8:39 PM | link |

Memorial Day
or, Rock & Roll Never Forgets
Went shopping last night with my last two quarters of Amazon credit. Problem is, I feel so guilty about getting all this loot from you guys, that all I can read about is how to cure myself of being such a heartless fucking sociopath. Imagine me crying at the keyboard, hugging my Freud Action Figure. Oh baby! Can you ever forgive me?

The Anthropology of Experience

On Narrative

Narrative Therapy: The Social Construction of Preferred Realities

Conversation Language and Possibilities: A Postmodern Approach to Therapy

Back to Reality: A Critique of Postmodern Theory in Psychotherapy

Kohut, Loewald, and the Postmoderns: A Comparative Study of Self and Relationship

The Creation of Reality in Psychoanalysis: A View of the Contributions of Donald Spence, Roy Schafer, Robert Stolorow, Irwin Z. Hoffman, and Beyond

The Emergence of a Relational Psychoanalysis

Relationality: From Attachment to Intersubjectivity

Hope and Dread in Psychoanalysis

7:11 PM | link |

Sunday, May 25, 2003
Get the Freud Action Figure!

And we quote...
This Sigmund Freud toy goes where no action figure has gone before: He can leap long couches in a single session, run faster than an untamed id and stop a speeding phallic symbol using only his cigar. All while wearing a simple gray suit over a single item of his mother's underwear - the infamous Freudian Slip. He measures 5" tall with poseable head and arms. His eyes appear to follow you.

10:28 PM | link |

Our Box

Mandarin Design says make a box, we make a box. We are practicing obedience.

"RageBoy: Entertaining writings and pics from a lunatic who should have machine gun sound effects in the background. Still figuring this one out - no, will never figure this one out."

Also for a really cool grafikal blogroll, don't miss "Blogs we are reading..." on selfsame site. Mouseover it and see if you can spot the lunatic the above was written about.

9:13 PM | link |

We Dont Know Ourself

First off, Jeneane sez...
Chris and RageBoy sittin' in a tree

Yeah, you could say it's an inside joke. If the hyperhyphenated link above leaves you wondering, and you find yourself overcome with inexplicable intellectual thirst (inexplicable because, well, this has never happened to you before), try SHAME: The Exposed Self. Kirkus Reviews has this to say about it:

"The self must be exposed to itself... in order for shame to be felt [The author] traces the developmental processes that allow for the emergence of shame, analyzes how it differs from related feelings, examines ways of coping with it, and looks at how the sexes differ in their experience of it. Females, he says, experience more shame than males, and when the emotion is prolonged, females are more likely to respond with depression and males with rage. In fact, Lewis links the violence in our society to an out-of-control shame/rage spiral. In extreme cases, prolonged shame may even produce narcissistic and multiple-personality disorders, both of which the author sees as on the increase."
I can corroborate that last surmise as being 100% correct from my own personal Personal Experience. And I can tell you, these shameful narcissists are no picnic. Jesus! Suck your fucking heart out just as soon as look at you. This is why I had to turn into so many different people. Sorry, Mom, I couldn't help it.

"I blame society." (Repo Man)

In other news, this just came across the City Desk...

dear sir
compliment of the season.i write to solicite your favour dont minding that we dont know ourself.i hope you accept this proposer in good faith.
Good faith can fuck me dead, Bucko. I ask you. What did I ever do to deserve this? Any of it!

9:02 PM | link |

"RageBoy: Giving being fucking nuts a good name since 1985."
~D. Weinberger
28 October 2004

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